#TBH: To Be Heard

My issue with death is the finality of it.  You know you'll never get to see that person again and you'll never get to speak to them again.  You wonder if they knew how much you loved them.  You wonder if you said all you needed to say to them while they were here.  You wonder, if you believe in heaven, if they are there.  You want them to be around to see you follow your dreams, when you get your first real boyfriend, when you get married, when you have children.  You just wonder so many things. The most haunting thing for me about death has been wondering if I said all I was supposed to say.  Did that person hear the Gospel, did he/she receive the Gospel of Christ.  The way some Christians talk it seems like the Gospel isn't enough to receive salvation and to guarantee eternal life with the Father.  God will I make it in? Those thoughts prompt me to follow the Holy Spirit and be more sensitive when I believe He's telling me to do someth...

I started this post a long time ago and I'm just now getting around to finishing it.  I was going to tell you about how my dance program at NCCU was going after the first couple of weeks but now we're near the end of the semester so I have much more to share with you.  Classes started August 17th and are about to end in a few weeks! I hit some bumps along the way and thought about quitting a couple of times but I hung (and am still hanging) in there. I'm really grateful that God led me to NCCU because I really think he wanted me to meet my Jazz and Contemporary dance teacher, Ms. J.  That lady is so amazing! She has been so encouraging and helpful.  She has challenged me and pushed me to keep working towards my goal. I really have never worked so hard at anything in my life.  Being in her class just makes you want to go hard.  My classmates and many of the girls in my dance group have been phenomenal as well.  They have been encouraging and helpful to ...

So the wedding bells have rang and my dance has been danced...umm...so I am struggling with how to start off these posts.  Anywhoo, in the last dance update I told you that I was going to be dancing in a wedding.  (One of my sisters from church asked me to dance at her and my cousin's wedding.) Do you remember?  Well, the wedding has come and I did it! It was such an honor for her to ask me to do that for her! Before I went out, the groom's dad prayed with me and the groom, the best man, and one of my Pastors gave me a pep talk.  They told me to go out there, have fun, and think about it as worship.  I went and did just that.  I didn't worry about all of the people looking at me or what I looked like, I just danced! Of course afterwards I critiqued it and wish I hadn't watched it but in the moment there was no one else in the room besides me and an audience of One ;) The video link is below as well as a pic of me and the beautiful bride! Stay tuned for mor...

***Drum roll please**** I'm going to school for dance!!! Ahhhh! So I decided that if I don't take the opportunity to follow this dream now I will let fear and hesitation get in the way and I'd live in regret.  I honestly would rather try and fail than to not even try at all.  I will be attending NCCU in August and will be studying Physical Education with a concentration in Dance Teacher Education.  The goal will be to teach dance in the school system afterwards.  It's definitely going to be a stretch for me but I know that it will help me to become more disciplined. Also, one of my sisters from church asked me to dance at her wedding!! When she asked me, my stomach started to hurt and I got so nervous.  After several words of affirmation I told her I'd do it!  It's so crazy that people see in you what you don't see! She told me to just flow and not think about it as a performance.  That's something I want to keep in mind as I start this dance educa...

Since my last post I've been dancing quite a bit.  I've had the privilege of dancing at a women's event at my church, one of my brother's initial sermon, and with a dance company called Shammah.  Below are a couple of pictures from my dance recital with Shammah, January 16, 2015.  I'm currently working on a dance with my church's dance ministry known as Divine Destiny Dance Ministry as well as the choreography for my church's youth mime ministry.   After these two pieces are complete I have decided to take a break from dance for a while.  I want to focus on growing in God more and seeking Him to allow his will for my life and dance to come to pass.  I will be praying about my next steps and I hope you'll be praying.  Stay tuned! Here's a link to a video of a snippet of the dance I did, with one of my sisters, for our brother's initial sermon (I hope the link works): https://m.facebook.com/story.php?story_fbid=10205995831045863&id=156...