My last update was in November of 2015 which was a whole year and five months ago! It has been so long since I've done an update, I don't even know where to begin. I will say, dance has been the only consistent thing in my life over this past year and five months. Ok, let's see...I'll start with an update on my dance education program I began at NCCU. When I made the decision to follow this dance passion I knew it would not come easily and I could feel fear rising up. The first year of the program was extremely challenging for me. I had to deal with feelings of inadequacy and fear the most. Compared to the other dancers in my program and in my dance classes, I felt like I looked like a fish out of water. In my mind, at my age, I believed I should be further along as a dancer than where I was but one of my professors reminded me that I was not being fair to myself. She made me see how unfair it was to feel like I should be on the other dancers' lev...
My issue with death is the finality of it. You know you'll never get to see that person again and you'll never get to speak to them again. You wonder if they knew how much you loved them. You wonder if you said all you needed to say to them while they were here. You wonder, if you believe in heaven, if they are there. You want them to be around to see you follow your dreams, when you get your first real boyfriend, when you get married, when you have children. You just wonder so many things. The most haunting thing for me about death has been wondering if I said all I was supposed to say. Did that person hear the Gospel, did he/she receive the Gospel of Christ. The way some Christians talk it seems like the Gospel isn't enough to receive salvation and to guarantee eternal life with the Father. God will I make it in? Those thoughts prompt me to follow the Holy Spirit and be more sensitive when I believe He's telling me to do someth...